Me, Myself, and I

After that night where I just went off and drew..well, I think it kind of changed me. The drawing turned out to be pretty emotional-looking and really..well, it will always remind of that night and how I was upset. Not so much about what I was upset about, but just the experience of drawing from..my heart? My soul? lol. But just the experience of drawing for myself for the first time. Not drawing for a homework assignment (which it turned out to fit for, actually), not drawing to get praise and approval from others, not drawing just to practice and get better. But drawing for me, to alleviate myself my upset mood that I was in, to make me feel better about myself. To distract myself from reality into a whole different world where only charcoal hitting paper matters.

For a long while, when I created my loveasc cards and door signs, I always made them for other people. I never once made something for myself. Always for others and to see their reactions. Yes, it's good to give and I love doing it. But sometimes, it's good to give to yourself as well.

It's kind of like I put a little piece of myself into the drawing. It's kind of like the drawing took a little piece of me. It's now mounted on my wall, whenever I look at it, I'm reminded of the upset feelings I had that night.

I'm also reminded of the first time I drew for me, myself, and I. That's a big deal to me. As I am now a growing artist.